okay.
last night I did it.
I smoked my last cigarette.
today I put on a patch and it's itching my butt cheek.
today I'm not smoking.
I want to be just like you guys ;0)
thanks for the inspiration!
how are ya'll doing with the 'no-smoke' zone?
love
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last night I did it.
I smoked my last cigarette.
today I put on a patch and it's itching my butt cheek.
today I'm not smoking.
I want to be just like you guys ;0)
thanks for the inspiration!
how are ya'll doing with the 'no-smoke' zone?
love
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Tue, July 10, 2007 - 5:15 PMYay Belva! Man I was shocked at how expensive cigs were in Canadia.
I am still smoke free. What's funny is I walked in to a Bar in Oakland that still allows smoking and after walking out smelling like cigarettes I couldn't believe that I was repulsed by the smell. It was awful. I take it as a good sign. I still have those moments where I want one, or have the sense memory of smoking during certain events like hanging out with friends or driving my car. -
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Tue, July 10, 2007 - 5:48 PMYeah Canadian Cigarettes are easily $10CDN--which is around 8-ish US. Not cheap to say the least. The other 'interesting' thing about Canadian cigs is that they have these HUGE health warnings that take up the top quarter of the box. When they first started doing it it was only in black and white and said things like "Cigarettes are known to cause impotency in men" or "Cigaretttes are the leading cause in health disease" Now they have full on graphic pictures .... the worst is the rotting gums....the top part of the deck of smokes is a mouth showing only the receding gums and stained yellow teeth with some catchy phrase stating how smoking is bad for your mouth.
And of course it's in french on the other side.
So far so good today. Been sitting behind a sewing machine having a low stress day. I"m doing my best to 'just not think about it' and not give the fact that I'm not smoking much energy.
not ready to hang with smokers yet though....still might want one.
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Tue, July 10, 2007 - 7:55 PMI found the best way to deal with not smoking is to acknowledge the fact that I really wanted to smoke, but to just not smoke. Ignoring it only made it worse. Saying "yup. this is what it feels like to want a cigarette" was enough to give that feeling credit and in a way, giving it credit replaced the want to smoke. I was taking action to deal with the craving instead of substituting or ignoring it.
My favorite Cig warning was Cigarettes hurts babies with a picture of a sick infant. Awesome. -
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Wed, July 11, 2007 - 8:23 AMmmm yes. I agree with acknowledging that I want a cigarette. What I meant was by 'ignoring' the fact I want a cigarette is this::: in the past when I've tried quitting I've over acknowleged the fact that I wanted a cigarette....I'd say mantras to myself like "I'm a non smoker" or "I don't need a cigarette" or whatever. What I was doing was actually *consuming* my thoughts with the want of a cigarette.
This time I'm trying to let the cravings pass thru as they come...notice what it is that makes me want a cigarette...what my triggers are blah blah.
Something else I've discovered is that right now is ironically the best time to quit for the strangest reasons; right now I'm in a tough spot emotionally having been ripped away from my life and community in SF so quickly. I'm licking my wounds, and dealing with all the accompanying emotions that go along with it. Smoking would probably be good just now but actually adding the 'not smoking' factor into all of this isn't all that bad. I'm already moody, cranky-ish and sad so adding not smoking into the mix isn't really adding that much more stress...it's at the bottom of my emotional things to worry about.
Strange theory but for now it's working ;0)
I also awoke at 6am this morning and went for a quick run in the country. The weather was cool enough to do so (today the temps will get into the late 30's Celcius...really freaking HOT!), the scenery was breath taking, and the air was clean. My lungs kinda freaked out but it felt good to start moving the phlegm around!!!
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Wed, July 11, 2007 - 12:07 PMI totally know what your talking about. Two years ago when my wife and I decided to split I got a new job, a new apartment, and a new life all at once. It was at that time that I gave up Television, smoking (as much) weed, and adopted a whole new attitude on life. I went on Wellburtin shortly there after to combat a long simmering depression and never looked back. Change is best when you can do it all at once. Especially when change comes your way without you wanting or asking for it. For every door that closes, new ones open, you just need to see the door and to have the courage to walk through it.
My blog module wasn't working on Tribe when you announced your Visa crisis. I'm so utterly devastated. I was looking forward to hanging out and getting to do ridiculous with you. Our loss is someone else's gain though. Keep your head up. -
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Thu, July 12, 2007 - 10:54 AMThanks for your sweet words and sharing of stuff dear J-Rad.
Yes...there's some *great* reason that I'm up here in this moment of my life....I"m merely waiting to find out just what it is....ha. I have a few inklings on it but golly gee whiz...why did it have to happen right NOW?! Bah.
Yes. I see the door and am doing my best to charge thru it as best I can. Change is constant they say. Growth is essential. In Canada I'm always the Phoenix rising from the ashes...this is a hard place for me to be as it always faces me with the hardest of realities, slaps me in the face with them actually and I can't run away from them...so I have to deal with them asap.
It's a good thing in the end.
I will be back to SF at the end of this month for a short spell. I intend on going to Polly's B-Day extraveganza....there'll be more opportunity to play, frolick and get our "Ridonkulous" on!!!
I"m now on day three of no smokes and the phlegm is starting to rise up. I chose an extra hour of sleep this morning instead of running...I was glad for it ;0) -
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Thu, July 12, 2007 - 1:26 PMAll Hail Belva! a role model for us all.
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Wed, July 18, 2007 - 4:36 PMDoing just jolly over here.
STILL not a single drag since early May.
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Thu, July 19, 2007 - 1:00 PMI'm now on my 10th day of not smoking. I'll admit to a few drags here n there but nothing all that major--hhooorrraaayy!!!!
last night I dreamt that I was smoking/eating cigarette butts and it was gross...or was I smoking cigarette butts and it felt like I was eating them. However...I didn't like it all that much.
I still crave cigarettes though like crazy...my body is over the nicotine action...it's now the habit...and I'm cranky often...but I trust that in time it'll fade. I run a lot...get cardio exercise a lot cause I have a lot of energy now and the cardio makes the back of my throat feel good--as though i was smoking a cigarette. strange I know. but it works.
YAY US!
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